The realization of being at stuck at the bottom of the well can be exhilirating and scary at the same time. The realization that you are at the very bottom inflicts a pain so numbing that it leaves you unable to move. The realization that you are at the very bottom makes you realize that from here, you can only go up - there is no other way. You are stuck at the bottom of a glass...not a plain.........there is an UP

Just keep doing what you are meant to be doing. Piece together the building blocks that will attract the energies toward you.

Day - the first few

Going through the motions of life.Wanting to change. Making the change. Living the change.Irresistible Temptation.Going through the motions of life.

That has been my lifestyle for a while now. Recently, I achieved 2 of my short term goals...am living my dream. Inspired by this success and change, reinforced by my mum's visit I realize there is nothing in the world I cannot do. So "do" I do.

Picking up my book ( the book I keep meaning to take out time for ) itself brings to life energies and motivations within me. The very energy and motivation I keep searching for outside of my self. Realize, acknowledge and appreciate the power within - the power to shine in one's own world as well as others.

Random thoughts, scattered thoughts all over my brain,my fingers rushing to get them down. I am working on controlling two of my greatest desires. Wanting a change from them controlling me. It felt good in the beginning, I guess the difference feels good till the realization hits that this abstinence might be permanent. Uneasiness begins to settle, run through my veins indicating that maybe this isn't the right time. But the clarity of mind obtained through this absitnence stops that thought right there and asks "then when?" it brings to my attention this quote " you are as small as your controlling thought and as big as your dominant desire" . I desire to be the One among many. Waste away these negative, doubtful thoughts. Let the spirit of creativity flourish and soar high within you. Accept this uneasiness, this discomfort as the only issues of change - like breaking into a new pair of shoes, till they are moulded to fit just right. Give yourself the chance to make it through the jounery, to experience how the world fits in with you.